Part 1 – The last four weeks.
As some of you may have noticed I have been posting regularly everyday about the Chloe Ting workouts. Apart from the minor set back of the random early rest day that I had last week in which all functionality of anything stopped. I have already punished myself for that minor set back, and believe I have made up for it now. Five days of sweating into my tears, pretty punishing I think. Due to this regularity some of you may have picked up that I have not been working. Yes, I no longer work for the answering service.
I left because emotionally and mentally I could not take the calls anymore. Not to sound bitter but I draw the line at sexual harassment. Even if it is only down the phone. And this is no fault to the company at all, they cannot control who calls in, which is what made me come to the conclusion that I can’t do this anymore. There was also the fact that I wasn’t coping at all, I was having mental breakdowns nearly every day, and I would just shut down when I wasn’t breaking down.
This decision was a few weeks ago. I am better now. My partner also very kindly saved me and offered to support me while I work on what I actually want to do rather than just a job to pay the bills. Which has been great. I have been managing to write every day so far. Even if it has just been for an hour or so.
To get back to the point. I managed to finish a chapter today. I feel really good. To clarify, it hasn’t taken me four weeks to write one chapter. No, I have managed to throw out a chapter a week. I would like to be a little more efficient and write more than one chapter a week but baby steps.
But yes, I finished a chapter today and I feel really good. The week has not ended which means I may smash out two chapters a week. I would like to take this to mean that I am getting back into the flow and habit of writing again. While I was working I had stopped. Then when I stopped working it was a little bit of a stuttering start.
With that stuttering start I had only accomplished one chapter in the first week. Barely. It nearly bled into the second week. This also meant that reading had slowed down as well. The time I would spend reading was time I was using to knock out a few extra words. However, now this week I have managed to shoot out a whole chapter before the end of the week. This could be the moment that the writing is shite, but there is a magical thing called editing which I will eventually get around to once the first draft of this project is finished. Next week the goal will be to knock out two chapters in one week… Yes two!
I am excited though, this is it. This is going to be my attempt at publishing something for real. Progress is being made everywhere, not just in exercise. I am feeling a lot better about myself. Confidence still needs work but bravery is going a long way.
Thank you so much for reading. Write again soon! Bye!