Routine… What is that?

As I have mentioned in previous posts, I have a new job. Well, I have been with this job for the last… two months? Has it been two months? Oh shit, I still feel like I have no idea what I am doing. Anyway, I don’t know if I have ever said what my job is but I will say now that I work as an answering service. So, people if you call into a business that has an answering service you might have actually spoken to me… yeah, great…

But thanks to this job, my sleeping pattern and routine has completely splatted on the ground that may have been my normal. And so my sleeping has been all over the place and that isn’t great. Because my bedtime has been later, my wake up time is later and I HATE that! I am an early bird. I love waking up at the crack of dawn before the rest of the world. I don’t know why but that is the safe place for me. Now… that is no more. I can’t be that early bird. I wake up closer to the afternoon and lose out on the morning which is killing me on the inside. I don’t even know if I can describe properly how this feels. OK, imagine that feeling that some of you may experience when you feel like there are not enough hours in the day, and you feel like you wasted the day? Sort of like that except this time rather than it being wasted, it feels completely missed.

This feeling isn’t going away, and I don’t think my working time is going to change anytime soon. So, the best thing I have tried to do for myself is set my work schedule to be as regular as possible. I started doing that after like a week into my new job and it kicked in properly a few weeks ago. Which means I am working the same days and the same time every week. But it is still a change, and my body is not adjusting great.

As I said in a previous post I wasn’t well on Friday, and I want to put this down to my sleep. (To a certain someone I love, and who loves me and will probably read this, no, I haven’t phoned the doctor about it yet but I will! Promise eventually I will). But not only this, I haven’t been eating properly, I find it hard to time eating time around work. Don’t ask me why please because I can’t explain it, every time I have a job I just can’t seem to organise myself properly to actually make the effort to look after myself… But as that same person, who I love and loves me, pointed out I am getting to that age in which my body is not recovering or able to function as well regardless of how little food or sleep I have had. So, now is the time for me to make those efforts… better late than never right? (Yes, I am awkward smiling at myself while my inner brain is shaking its head in disgust).

I have been taking the Juice plus capsules to help with my lack of nutrition because I am a terribly fussy eater. So fussy, I know for a fact that if we ended up in an apocalypse and we had to live in the wild again I would starve. I would starve to death, I’m sorry! I know that is awful! But certain things make me wretch I just can’t. I have tried, I went through a trip away to Amsterdam with a friend and she can vouch for me I seriously tried to eat salads and other foods but it just kept getting worse and worse until I was dreading eating anything. The juice plus is to help me get what I am missing out on without me dreading food.

Now though I need to fix my sleep. So, I am going to try and forsake the awful feeling of missing out of my mornings and try to commit to nine hours of sleep roughly. Nine hours sounds like so much but I want to be able to improve the capabilities of my body and some of the advice I have read is that nine hours sleep is recommended and since my business with my business partner is physical I need to physically get back into some form of fitness. Lockdown has ruined me. I am starting the nine hours sleep tonight after work… and I am going to see how I feel every week afterwards.

This does mean that everything else I need to do and would like to do is going to be crammed into less time but needs must. These things don’t function at all if I don’t function right?

I will update if or when I start feeling any changes or if I don’t feel or see any difference and just give up but I’m thinking of doing this for a while to get a proper feel for this… probably rather busy new routine that is going to start.

Thank you for reading. Writer again soon! Bye!